AFTER this stop, we made on to the
southward continually for ten or
twelve days, living very sparingly
on our provisions, which began
to abate very much, and going no
oftener to the shore than we were
obliged to for fresh water. My
design in this was to make the
river Gambia or Senegal, that is to
say anywhere about the Cape de
Verde, where I was in hopes to meet
with some European ship; and if
I did not, I knew not what course I
had to take, but to seek for
the islands, or perish there among
the negroes. I knew that all
the ships from Europe, which sailed
either to the coast of Guinea
or to Brazil, or to the East Indies,
made this cape, or those
islands; and, in a word, I put the
whole of my fortune upon this
single point, either that I must
meet with some ship or must
perish. When I had pursued this resolution
about ten days longer, as I have
said, I began to see that the land
was inhabited; and in two or
three places, as we sailed by, we
saw people stand upon the shore
to look at us; we could also
perceive they were quite black and
naked. I was once inclined to have
gone on shore to them; but Xury
was my better counsellor, and said
to me, "No go, no go." However,
I hauled in nearer the shore that I
might talk to them, and I found
they ran along the shore by me a
good way. I observed they had no
weapons in their hand, except one,
who had a long slender stick,
which Xury said was a lance, and
that they could throw them a great
way with good aim; so I kept at a
distance, but talked with them by
signs as well as I could; and
particularly made signs for
something
to eat: they beckoned to me to stop
my boat, and they would fetch
me some meat. Upon this I lowered
the top of my sail and lay by,
and two of them ran up into the
country, and in less than half-an-
hour came back, and brought with
them two pieces of dried flesh and
some corn, such as is the produce of
their country; but we neither
knew what the one or the other was;
however, we were willing to
accept it, but how to come at it was
our next dispute, for I would
not venture on shore to them, and
they were as much afraid of us;
but they took a safe way for us all,
for they brought it to the
shore and laid it down, and went and
stood a great way off till we
fetched it on board, and then came
close to us again. We made signs of thanks to them, for
we had nothing to make them
amends; but an opportunity offered
that very instant to oblige them
wonderfully; for while we were lying
by the shore came two mighty
creatures, one pursuing the other
(as we took it) with great fury
from the mountains towards the sea;
whether it was the male
pursuing the female, or whether they
were in sport or in rage, we
could not tell, any more than we
could tell whether it was usual or
strange, but I believe it was the
latter; because, in the first
place, those ravenous creatures
seldom appear but in the night;
and, in the second place, we found
the people terribly frighted,
especially the women. The man that
had the lance or dart did not
fly from them, but the rest did;
however, as the two creatures ran
directly into the water, they did
not offer to fall upon any of the
negroes, but plunged themselves into
the sea, and swam about, as if
they had come for their diversion;
at last one of them began to
come nearer our boat than at first I
expected; but I lay ready for
him, for I had loaded my gun with
all possible expedition, and bade
Xury load both the others. As soon
as he came fairly within my
reach, I fired, and shot him
directly in the head; immediately he
sank down into the water, but rose
instantly, and plunged up and
down, as if he were struggling for
life, and so indeed he was; he
immediately made to the shore; but
between the wound, which was his
mortal hurt, and the strangling of
the water, he died just before
he reached the shore. It is impossible to express the
astonishment of these poor
creatures at the noise and fire of
my gun: some of them were even
ready to die for fear, and fell down
as dead with the very terror;
but when they saw the creature dead,
and sunk in the water, and
that I made signs to them to come to
the shore, they took heart and
came, and began to search for the
creature. I found him by his
blood staining the water; and by the
help of a rope, which I slung
round him, and gave the negroes to
haul, they dragged him on shore,
and found that it was a most curious
leopard, spotted, and fine to
an admirable degree; and the negroes
held up their hands with
admiration, to think what it was I
had killed him with. The other creature, frighted with
the flash of fire and the noise
of the gun, swam on shore, and ran
up directly to the mountains
from whence they came; nor could I,
at that distance, know what it
was. I found quickly the negroes
wished to eat the flesh of this
creature, so I was willing to have
them take it as a favour from
me; which, when I made signs to them
that they might take him, they
were very thankful for. Immediately
they fell to work with him;
and though they had no knife, yet,
with a sharpened piece of wood,
they took off his skin as readily,
and much more readily, than we
could have done with a knife. They
offered me some of the flesh,
which I declined, pointing out that
I would give it them; but made
signs for the skin, which they gave
me very freely, and brought me
a great deal more of their
provisions, which, though I did not
understand, yet I accepted. I then
made signs to them for some
water, and held out one of my jars
to them, turning it bottom
upward, to show that it was empty,
and that I wanted to have it
filled. They called immediately to
some of their friends, and
there came two women, and brought a
great vessel made of earth, and
burnt, as I supposed, in the sun,
this they set down to me, as
before, and I sent Xury on shore
with my jars, and filled them all
three. The women were as naked as
the men. I was now furnished with roots and
corn, such as it was, and water;
and leaving my friendly negroes, I
made forward for about eleven
days more, without offering to go
near the shore, till I saw the
land run out a great length into the
sea, at about the distance of
four or five leagues before me; and
the sea being very calm, I kept
a large offing to make this point.
At length, doubling the point,
at about two leagues from the land,
I saw plainly land on the other
side, to seaward; then I concluded,
as it was most certain indeed,
that this was the Cape de Verde, and
those the islands called, from
thence, Cape de Verde Islands.
However, they were at a great
distance, and I could not well tell
what I had best to do; for if I
should be taken with a fresh of
wind, I might neither reach one or
other. In this dilemma, as I was very
pensive, I stepped into the cabin
and sat down, Xury having the helm;
when, on a sudden, the boy
cried out, "Master, master, a ship
with a sail!" and the foolish
boy was frighted out of his wits,
thinking it must needs be some of
his master's ships sent to pursue
us, but I knew we were far enough
out of their reach. I jumped out of
the cabin, and immediately
saw, not only the ship, but that it
was a Portuguese ship; and, as
I thought, was bound to the coast of
Guinea, for negroes. But,
when I observed the course she
steered, I was soon convinced they
were bound some other way, and did
not design to come any nearer to
the shore; upon which I stretched
out to sea as much as I could,
resolving to speak with them if
possible. With all the sail I could make, I
found I should not be able to
come in their way, but that they
would be gone by before I could
make any signal to them: but after I
had crowded to the utmost, and
began to despair, they, it seems,
saw by the help of their glasses
that it was some European boat,
which they supposed must belong to
some ship that was lost; so they
shortened sail to let me come up.
I was encouraged with this, and as I
had my patron's ancient on
board, I made a waft of it to them,
for a signal of distress, and
fired a gun, both which they saw;
for they told me they saw the
smoke, though they did not hear the
gun. Upon these signals they
very kindly brought to, and lay by
for me; and in about three
hours; time I came up with them. They asked me what I was, in
Portuguese, and in Spanish, and in
French, but I understood none of
them; but at last a Scotch sailor,
who was on board, called to me: and
I answered him, and told him I
was an Englishman, that I had made
my escape out of slavery from
the Moors, at Sallee; they then bade
me come on board, and very
kindly took me in, and all my goods. It was an inexpressible joy to me,
which any one will believe, that
I was thus delivered, as I esteemed
it, from such a miserable and
almost hopeless condition as I was
in; and I immediately offered
all I had to the captain of the
ship, as a return for my
deliverance; but he generously told
me he would take nothing from
me, but that all I had should be
delivered safe to me when I came
to the Brazils. "For," says he, "I
have saved your life on no
other terms than I would be glad to
be saved myself: and it may,
one time or other, be my lot to be
taken up in the same condition.
Besides," said he, "when I carry you
to the Brazils, so great a way
from your own country, if I should
take from you what you have, you
will be starved there, and then I
only take away that life I have
given. No, no," says he: "Seignior
Inglese" (Mr. Englishman), "I
will carry you thither in charity,
and those things will help to
buy your subsistence there, and your
passage home again." As he was charitable in this
proposal, so he was just in the
performance to a tittle; for he
ordered the seamen that none should
touch anything that I had: then he
took everything into his own
possession, and gave me back an
exact inventory of them, that I
might have them, even to my three
earthen jars. As to my boat, it was a very good
one; and that he saw, and told me
he would buy it of me for his ship's
use; and asked me what I would
have for it? I told him he had been
so generous to me in
everything that I could not offer to
make any price of the boat,
but left it entirely to him: upon
which he told me he would give me
a note of hand to pay me eighty
pieces of eight for it at Brazil;
and when it came there, if any one
offered to give more, he would
make it up. He offered me also sixty
pieces of eight more for my
boy Xury, which I was loth to take;
not that I was unwilling to let
the captain have him, but I was very
loth to sell the poor boy's
liberty, who had assisted me so
faithfully in procuring my own.
However, when I let him know my
reason, he owned it to be just, and
offered me this medium, that he
would give the boy an obligation to
set him free in ten years, if he
turned Christian: upon this, and
Xury saying he was willing to go to
him, I let the captain have
him. We had a very good voyage to the
Brazils, and I arrived in the Bay
de Todos los Santos, or All Saints'
Bay, in about twenty-two days
after. And now I was once more
delivered from the most miserable
of all conditions of life; and what
to do next with myself I was to
consider. The generous treatment the captain
gave me I can never enough
remember: he would take nothing of
me for my passage, gave me
twenty ducats for the leopard's
skin, and forty for the lion's
skin, which I had in my boat, and
caused everything I had in the
ship to be punctually delivered to
me; and what I was willing to
sell he bought of me, such as the
case of bottles, two of my guns,
and a piece of the lump of beeswax -
for I had made candles of the
rest: in a word, I made about two
hundred and twenty pieces of
eight of all my cargo; and with this
stock I went on shore in the
Brazils. I had not been long here before I
was recommended to the house of a
good honest man like himself, who
had an INGENIO, as they call it
(that is, a plantation and a
sugar-house). I lived with him some
time, and acquainted myself by that
means with the manner of
planting and making of sugar; and
seeing how well the planters
lived, and how they got rich
suddenly, I resolved, if I could get
a
licence to settle there, I would
turn planter among them: resolving
in the meantime to find out some way
to get my money, which I had
left in London, remitted to me. To
this purpose, getting a kind of
letter of naturalisation, I
purchased as much land that was
uncured
as my money would reach, and formed
a plan for my plantation and
settlement; such a one as might be
suitable to the stock which I
proposed to myself to receive from
England. I had a neighbour, a Portuguese, of
Lisbon, but born of English
parents, whose name was Wells, and
in much such circumstances as I
was. I call him my neighbour,
because his plantation lay next to
mine, and we went on very sociably
together. My stock was but low,
as well as his; and we rather
planted for food than anything else,
for about two years. However, we
began to increase, and our land
began to come into order; so that
the third year we planted some
tobacco, and made each of us a large
piece of ground ready for
planting canes in the year to come.
But we both wanted help; and
now I found, more than before, I had
done wrong in parting with my
boy Xury. But, alas! for me to do wrong that
never did right, was no great
wonder. I hail no remedy but to go
on: I had got into an
employment quite remote to my
genius, and directly contrary to the
life I delighted in, and for which I
forsook my father's house, and
broke through all his good advice.
Nay, I was coming into the very
middle station, or upper degree of
low life, which my father
advised me to before, and which, if
I resolved to go on with, I
might as well have stayed at home,
and never have fatigued myself
in the world as I had done; and I
used often to say to myself, I
could have done this as well in
England, among my friends, as have
gone five thousand miles off to do
it among strangers and savages,
in a wilderness, and at such a
distance as never to hear from any
part of the world that had the least
knowledge of me. In this manner I used to look upon
my condition with the utmost
regret. I had nobody to converse
with, but now and then this
neighbour; no work to be done, but
by the labour of my hands; and I
used to say, I lived just like a man
cast away upon some desolate
island, that had nobody there but
himself. But how just has it
been - and how should all men
reflect, that when they compare
their
present conditions with others that
are worse, Heaven may oblige
them to make the exchange, and be
convinced of their former
felicity by their experience - I
say, how just has it been, that
the truly solitary life I reflected
on, in an island of mere
desolation, should be my lot, who
had so often unjustly compared it
with the life which I then led, in
which, had I continued, I had in
all probability been exceeding
prosperous and rich. I was in some degree settled in my
measures for carrying on the
plantation before my kind friend,
the captain of the ship that took
me up at sea, went back - for the
ship remained there, in providing
his lading and preparing for his
voyage, nearly three months - when
telling him what little stock I had
left behind me in London, he
gave me this friendly and sincere
advice:- "Seignior Inglese," says
he (for so he always called me), "if
you will give me letters, and
a procuration in form to me, with
orders to the person who has your
money in London to send your effects
to Lisbon, to such persons as
I shall direct, and in such goods as
are proper for this country, I
will bring you the produce of them,
God willing, at my return; but,
since human affairs are all subject
to changes and disasters, I
would have you give orders but for
one hundred pounds sterling,
which, you say, is half your stock,
and let the hazard be run for
the first; so that, if it come safe,
you may order the rest the
same way, and, if it miscarry, you
may have the other half to have
recourse to for your supply." This was so wholesome advice, and
looked so friendly, that I could
not but be convinced it was the best
course I could take; so I
accordingly prepared letters to the
gentlewoman with whom I had
left my money, and a procuration to
the Portuguese captain, as he
desired. I wrote the English captain's widow
a full account of all my
adventures - my slavery, escape, and
how I had met with the
Portuguese captain at sea, the
humanity of his behaviour, and what
condition I was now in, with all
other necessary directions for my
supply; and when this honest captain
came to Lisbon, he found
means, by some of the English
merchants there, to send over, not
the order only, but a full account
of my story to a merchant in
London, who represented it
effectually to her; whereupon she
not
only delivered the money, but out of
her own pocket sent the
Portugal captain a very handsome
present for his humanity and
charity to me. The merchant in London, vesting this
hundred pounds in English
goods, such as the captain had
written for, sent them directly to
him at Lisbon, and he brought them
all safe to me to the Brazils;
among which, without my direction
(for I was too young in my
business to think of them), he had
taken care to have all sorts of
tools, ironwork, and utensils
necessary for my plantation, and
which were of great use to me. When this cargo arrived I thought my
fortune made, for I was
surprised with the joy of it; and my
stood steward, the captain,
had laid out the five pounds, which
my friend had sent him for a
present for himself, to purchase and
bring me over a servant, under
bond for six years' service, and
would not accept of any
consideration, except a little
tobacco, which I would have him
accept, being of my own produce. Neither was this all; for my goods
being all English manufacture,
such as cloths, stuffs, baize, and
things particularly valuable and
desirable in the country, I found
means to sell them to a very
great advantage; so that I might say
I had more than four times the
value of my first cargo, and was now
infinitely beyond my poor
neighbour - I mean in the
advancement of my plantation; for
the
first thing I did, I bought me a
negro slave, and an European
servant also - I mean another
besides that which the captain
brought me from Lisbon. But as abused prosperity is
oftentimes made the very means of
our
greatest adversity, so it was with
me. I went on the next year
with great success in my plantation:
I raised fifty great rolls of
tobacco on my own ground, more than
I had disposed of for
necessaries among my neighbours; and
these fifty rolls, being each
of above a hundredweight, were well
cured, and laid by against the
return of the fleet from Lisbon: and
now increasing in business and
wealth, my head began to be full of
projects and undertakings
beyond my reach; such as are,
indeed, often the ruin of the best
heads in business. Had I continued
in the station I was now in, I
had room for all the happy things to
have yet befallen me for which
my father so earnestly recommended a
quiet, retired life, and of
which he had so sensibly described
the middle station of life to be
full of; but other things attended
me, and I was still to be the
wilful agent of all my own miseries;
and particularly, to increase
my fault, and double the reflections
upon myself, which in my
future sorrows I should have leisure
to make, all these
miscarriages were procured by my
apparent obstinate adhering to my
foolish inclination of wandering
abroad, and pursuing that
inclination, in contradiction to the
clearest views of doing myself
good in a fair and plain pursuit of
those prospects, and those
measures of life, which nature and
Providence concurred to present
me with, and to make my duty. As I had once done thus in my
breaking away from my parents, so I
could not be content now, but I must
go and leave the happy view I
had of being a rich and thriving man
in my new plantation, only to
pursue a rash and immoderate desire
of rising faster than the
nature of the thing admitted; and
thus I cast myself down again
into the deepest gulf of human
misery that ever man fell into, or
perhaps could be consistent with
life and a state of health in the
world. To come, then, by the just degrees
to the particulars of this part
of my story. You may suppose, that
having now lived almost four
years in the Brazils, and beginning
to thrive and prosper very well
upon my plantation, I had not only
learned the language, but had
contracted acquaintance and
friendship among my fellow-planters,
as
well as among the merchants at St.
Salvador, which was our port;
and that, in my discourses among
them, I had frequently given them
an account of my two voyages to the
coast of Guinea: the manner of
trading with the negroes there, and
how easy it was to purchase
upon the coast for trifles - such as
beads, toys, knives, scissors,
hatchets, bits of glass, and the
like - not only gold-dust, Guinea
grains, elephants' teeth, &c., but
negroes, for the service of the
Brazils, in great numbers. They listened always very
attentively to my discourses on
these
heads, but especially to that part
which related to the buying of
negroes, which was a trade at that
time, not only not far entered
into, but, as far as it was, had
been carried on by assientos, or
permission of the kings of Spain and
Portugal, and engrossed in the
public stock: so that few negroes
were bought, and these
excessively dear. It happened, being in company with
some merchants and planters of
my acquaintance, and talking of
those things very earnestly, three
of them came to me next morning, and
told me they had been musing
very much upon what I had discoursed
with them of the last night,
and they came to make a secret
proposal to me; and, after enjoining
me to secrecy, they told me that
they had a mind to fit out a ship
to go to Guinea; that they had all
plantations as well as I, and
were straitened for nothing so much
as servants; that as it was a
trade that could not be carried on,
because they could not publicly
sell the negroes when they came
home, so they desired to make but
one voyage, to bring the negroes on
shore privately, and divide
them among their own plantations;
and, in a word, the question was
whether I would go their supercargo
in the ship, to manage the
trading part upon the coast of
Guinea; and they offered me that I
should have my equal share of the
negroes, without providing any
part of the stock. This was a fair proposal, it must be
confessed, had it been made to
any one that had not had a
settlement and a plantation of his
own
to look after, which was in a fair
way of coming to be very
considerable, and with a good stock
upon it; but for me, that was
thus entered and established, and
had nothing to do but to go on as
I had begun, for three or four years
more, and to have sent for the
other hundred pounds from England;
and who in that time, and with
that little addition, could scarce
have failed of being worth three
or four thousand pounds sterling,
and that increasing too - for me
to think of such a voyage was the
most preposterous thing that ever
man in such circumstances could be
guilty of. But I, that was born to be my own
destroyer, could no more resist
the offer than I could restrain my
first rambling designs when my
father' good counsel was lost upon
me. In a word, I told them I
would go with all my heart, if they
would undertake to look after
my plantation in my absence, and
would dispose of it to such as I
should direct, if I miscarried. This
they all engaged to do, and
entered into writings or covenants
to do so; and I made a formal
will, disposing of my plantation and
effects in case of my death,
making the captain of the ship that
had saved my life, as before,
my universal heir, but obliging him
to dispose of my effects as I
had directed in my will; one half of
the produce being to himself,
and the other to be shipped to
England. In short, I took all possible
caution to preserve my effects and
to
keep up my plantation. Had I used
half as much prudence to have
looked into my own interest, and
have made a judgment of what I
ought to have done and not to have
done, I had certainly never gone
away from so prosperous an
undertaking, leaving all the
probable
views of a thriving circumstance,
and gone upon a voyage to sea,
attended with all its common
hazards, to say nothing of the
reasons
I had to expect particular
misfortunes to myself. But I was hurried on, and obeyed
blindly the dictates of my fancy
rather than my reason; and,
accordingly, the ship being fitted
out,
and the cargo furnished, and all
things done, as by agreement, by
my partners in the voyage, I went on
board in an evil hour, the 1st
September 1659, being the same day
eight years that I went from my
father and mother at Hull, in order
to act the rebel to their
authority, and the fool to my own
interests. Our ship was about one hundred and
twenty tons burden, carried six
guns and fourteen men, besides the
master, his boy, and myself. We
had on board no large cargo of
goods, except of such toys as were
fit for our trade with the negroes,
such as beads, bits of glass,
shells, and other trifles,
especially little looking-glasses,
knives, scissors, hatchets, and the
like. The same day I went on board we set
sail, standing away to the
northward upon our own coast, with
design to stretch over for the
African coast when we came about ten
or twelve degrees of northern
latitude, which, it seems, was the
manner of course in those days.
We had very good weather, only
excessively hot, all the way upon
our own coast, till we came to the
height of Cape St. Augustino;
from whence, keeping further off at
sea, we lost sight of land, and
steered as if we were bound for the
isle Fernando de Noronha,
holding our course N.E. by N., and
leaving those isles on the east.
In this course we passed the line in
about twelve days' time, and
were, by our last observation, in
seven degrees twenty-two minutes
northern latitude, when a violent
tornado, or hurricane, took us
quite out of our knowledge. It began
from the south-east, came
about to the north-west, and then
settled in the north-east; from
whence it blew in such a terrible
manner, that for twelve days
together we could do nothing but
drive, and, scudding away before
it, let it carry us whither fate and
the fury of the winds
directed; and, during these twelve
days, I need not say that I
expected every day to be swallowed
up; nor, indeed, did any in the
ship expect to save their lives. In this distress we had, besides the
terror of the storm, one of
our men die of the calenture, and
one man and the boy washed
overboard. About the twelfth day,
the weather abating a little,
the master made an observation as
well as he could, and found that
he was in about eleven degrees north
latitude, but that he was
twenty-two degrees of longitude
difference west from Cape St.
Augustino; so that he found he was
upon the coast of Guiana, or the
north part of Brazil, beyond the
river Amazon, toward that of the
river Orinoco, commonly called the
Great River; and began to
consult with me what course he
should take, for the ship was leaky,
and very much disabled, and he was
going directly back to the coast
of Brazil. I was positively against that; and
looking over the charts of the
sea-coast of America with him, we
concluded there was no inhabited
country for us to have recourse to
till we came within the circle
of the Caribbee Islands, and
therefore resolved to stand away for
Barbadoes; which, by keeping off at
sea, to avoid the indraft of
the Bay or Gulf of Mexico, we might
easily perform, as we hoped, in
about fifteen days' sail; whereas we
could not possibly make our
voyage to the coast of Africa
without some assistance both to our
ship and to ourselves. With this design we changed our
course, and steered away N.W. by
W., in order to reach some of our
English islands, where I hoped
for relief. But our voyage was
otherwise determined; for, being in
the latitude of twelve degrees
eighteen minutes, a second storm
came upon us, which carried us away
with the same impetuosity
westward, and drove us so out of the
way of all human commerce,
that, had all our lives been saved
as to the sea, we were rather in
danger of being devoured by savages
than ever returning to our own
country. In this distress, the wind still
blowing very hard, one of our men
early in the morning cried out,
"Land!" and we had no sooner run
out of the cabin to look out, in
hopes of seeing whereabouts in the
world we were, than the ship struck
upon a sand, and in a moment
her motion being so stopped, the sea
broke over her in such a
manner that we expected we should
all have perished immediately;
and we were immediately driven into
our close quarters, to shelter
us from the very foam and spray of
the sea. It is not easy for any one who has
not been in the like condition
to describe or conceive the
consternation of men in such
circumstances. We knew nothing where
we were, or upon what land it
was we were driven - whether an
island or the main, whether
inhabited or not inhabited. As the
rage of the wind was still
great, though rather less than at
first, we could not so much as
hope to have the ship hold many
minutes without breaking into
pieces, unless the winds, by a kind
of miracle, should turn
immediately about. In a word, we sat
looking upon one another, and
expecting death every moment, and
every man, accordingly, preparing
for another world; for there was
little or nothing more for us to
do in this. That which was our
present comfort, and all the
comfort we had, was that, contrary
to our expectation, the ship did
not break yet, and that the master
said the wind began to abate. Now, though we thought that the wind
did a little abate, yet the
ship having thus struck upon the
sand, and sticking too fast for us
to expect her getting off, we were
in a dreadful condition indeed,
and had nothing to do but to think
of saving our lives as well as
we could. We had a boat at our stern
just before the storm, but
she was first staved by dashing
against the ship's rudder, and in
the next place she broke away, and
either sunk or was driven off to
sea; so there was no hope from her.
We had another boat on board,
but how to get her off into the sea
was a doubtful thing. However,
there was no time to debate, for we
fancied that the ship would
break in pieces every minute, and
some told us she was actually
broken already. In this distress the mate of our
vessel laid hold of the boat, and
with the help of the rest of the men
got her slung over the ship's
side; and getting all into her, let
go, and committed ourselves,
being eleven in number, to God's
mercy and the wild sea; for though
the storm was abated considerably,
yet the sea ran dreadfully high
upon the shore, and might be well
called DEN WILD ZEE, as the Dutch
call the sea in a storm. And now our case was very dismal
indeed; for we all saw plainly
that the sea went so high that the
boat could not live, and that we
should be inevitably drowned. As to
making sail, we had none, nor
if we had could we have done
anything with it; so we worked at
the
oar towards the land, though with
heavy hearts, like men going to
execution; for we all knew that when
the boat came near the shore
she would be dashed in a thousand
pieces by the breach of the sea.
However, we committed our souls to
God in the most earnest manner;
and the wind driving us towards the
shore, we hastened our
destruction with our own hands,
pulling as well as we could towards
land. What the shore was, whether rock or
sand, whether steep or shoal,
we knew not. The only hope that
could rationally give us the least
shadow of expectation was, if we
might find some bay or gulf, or
the mouth of some river, where by
great chance we might have run
our boat in, or got under the lee of
the land, and perhaps made
smooth water. But there was nothing
like this appeared; but as we
made nearer and nearer the shore,
the land looked more frightful
than the sea. After we had rowed, or rather driven
about a league and a half, as
we reckoned it, a raging wave,
mountain-like, came rolling astern
of us, and plainly bade us expect
the COUP DE GRACE. It took us
with such a fury, that it overset
the boat at once; and separating
us as well from the boat as from one
another, gave us no time to
say, "O God!" for we were all
swallowed up in a moment. Nothing can describe the confusion
of thought which I felt when I
sank into the water; for though I
swam very well, yet I could not
deliver myself from the waves so as
to draw breath, till that wave
having driven me, or rather carried
me, a vast way on towards the
shore, and having spent itself, went
back, and left me upon the
land almost dry, but half dead with
the water I took in. I had so
much presence of mind, as well as
breath left, that seeing myself
nearer the mainland than I expected,
I got upon my feet, and
endeavoured to make on towards the
land as fast as I could before
another wave should return and take
me up again; but I soon found
it was impossible to avoid it; for I
saw the sea come after me as
high as a great hill, and as furious
as an enemy, which I had no
means or strength to contend with:
my business was to hold my
breath, and raise myself upon the
water if I could; and so, by
swimming, to preserve my breathing,
and pilot myself towards the
shore, if possible, my greatest
concern now being that the sea, as
it would carry me a great way
towards the shore when it came on,
might not carry me back again with
it when it gave back towards the
sea. The wave that came upon me again
buried me at once twenty or thirty
feet deep in its own body, and I
could feel myself carried with a
mighty force and swiftness towards
the shore - a very great way;
but I held my breath, and assisted
myself to swim still forward
with all my might. I was ready to
burst with holding my breath,
when, as I felt myself rising up,
so, to my immediate relief, I
found my head and hands shoot out
above the surface of the water;
and though it was not two seconds of
time that I could keep myself
so, yet it relieved me greatly, gave
me breath, and new courage. I
was covered again with water a good
while, but not so long but I
held it out; and finding the water
had spent itself, and began to
return, I struck forward against the
return of the waves, and felt
ground again with my feet. I stood
still a few moments to recover
breath, and till the waters went
from me, and then took to my heels
and ran with what strength I had
further towards the shore. But
neither would this deliver me from
the fury of the sea, which came
pouring in after me again; and twice
more I was lifted up by the
waves and carried forward as before,
the shore being very flat. The last time of these two had
well-nigh been fatal to me, for the
sea having hurried me along as
before, landed me, or rather dashed
me, against a piece of rock, and
that with such force, that it left
me senseless, and indeed helpless,
as to my own deliverance; for
the blow taking my side and breast,
beat the breath as it were
quite out of my body; and had it
returned again immediately, I must
have been strangled in the water;
but I recovered a little before
the return of the waves, and seeing
I should be covered again with
the water, I resolved to hold fast
by a piece of the rock, and so
to hold my breath, if possible, till
the wave went back. Now, as
the waves were not so high as at
first, being nearer land, I held
my hold till the wave abated, and
then fetched another run, which
brought me so near the shore that
the next wave, though it went
over me, yet did not so swallow me
up as to carry me away; and the
next run I took, I got to the
mainland, where, to my great
comfort,
I clambered up the cliffs of the
shore and sat me down upon the
grass, free from danger and quite
out of the reach of the water. I was now landed and safe on shore,
and began to look up and thank
God that my life was saved, in a
case wherein there was some
minutes before scarce any room to
hope. I believe it is impossible
to express, to the life, what the
ecstasies and transports of the
soul are, when it is so saved, as I
may say, out of the very grave:
and I do not wonder now at the
custom, when a malefactor, who has
the halter about his neck, is tied
up, and just going to be turned
off, and has a reprieve brought to
him - I say, I do not wonder
that they bring a surgeon with it,
to let him blood that very
moment they tell him of it, that the
surprise may not drive the
animal spirits from the heart and
overwhelm him.
"For sudden joys, like griefs,
confound at first."
I walked about on the shore lifting
up my hands, and my whole
being, as I may say, wrapped up in a
contemplation of my
deliverance; making a thousand
gestures and motions, which I cannot
describe; reflecting upon all my
comrades that were drowned, and
that there should not be one soul
saved but myself; for, as for
them, I never saw them afterwards,
or any sign of them, except
three of their hats, one cap, and
two shoes that were not fellows. I cast my eye to the stranded
vessel, when, the breach and froth
of
the sea being so big, I could hardly
see it, it lay so far of; and
considered, Lord! how was it
possible I could get on shore After I had solaced my mind with the
comfortable part of my
condition, I began to look round me,
to see what kind of place I
was in, and what was next to be
done; and I soon found my comforts
abate, and that, in a word, I had a
dreadful deliverance; for I was
wet, had no clothes to shift me, nor
anything either to eat or
drink to comfort me; neither did I
see any prospect before me but
that of perishing with hunger or
being devoured by wild beasts; and
that which was particularly
afflicting to me was, that I had no
weapon, either to hunt and kill any
creature for my sustenance, or
to defend myself against any other
creature that might desire to
kill me for theirs. In a word, I had
nothing about me but a knife,
a tobacco-pipe, and a little tobacco
in a box. This was all my
provisions; and this threw me into
such terrible agonies of mind,
that for a while I ran about like a
madman. Night coming upon me,
I began with a heavy heart to
consider what would be my lot if
there were any ravenous beasts in
that country, as at night they
always come abroad for their prey. All the remedy that offered to my
thoughts at that time was to get
up into a thick bushy tree like a
fir, but thorny, which grew near
me, and where I resolved to sit all
night, and consider the next
day what death I should die, for as
yet I saw no prospect of life.
I walked about a furlong from the
shore, to see if I could find any
fresh water to drink, which I did,
to my great joy; and having
drank, and put a little tobacco into
my mouth to prevent hunger, I
went to the tree, and getting up
into it, endeavoured to place
myself so that if I should sleep I
might not fall. And having cut
me a short stick, like a truncheon,
for my defence, I took up my
lodging; and having been excessively
fatigued, I fell fast asleep,
and slept as comfortably as, I
believe, few could have done in my
condition, and found myself more
refreshed with it than, I think, I
ever was on such an occasion. |
